L O N G A G O . . .

felt my heart burst...

it was one of "those big life moments" that had my hands covering my mouth....

whispering "that's my daughter" over and over again to myself

the same feeling i had when the day i was married to my husband, Ahmad Ismail Bin Perman@Paiman.

the love that i felt couldn't be contained to the walls of my heart... it seeped out to every fiber of my body and pooled at my toes... i turned my head to find my eyes staring into my husband's eyes as our baby between us...

our eyes said what we couldn't say out loud...we both felt our hearts exploded like a firecracker on the eleven of november 2006...

tears pooled in my eyes...

i willed myself not to let them pour down my face...

i saved that for my private mom moment when everyone was asleep later that night...

3 years and 4 months 25 days after, that is my daughter...

simple... quiet confidence that needs no extra fluff... not only does she have her wings that are ready to take her to pre school, but she has courage to soar....

S h e S t o o d U p....

from the first time the doctor placed you in my arms
i knew i'd meet death before i'd let you meet harm
although questions arose in my mind, would i be woman enough
against wrong, choose right and be standing up
from the hospital that first night
took a hour just to get the car seat in right
people driving all fast, got me kinda upset
got you home safe, placed you in your bassinet
that night i don't think one wink i slept as i slipped out my bed, to your crib i crept
touched your head gently, felt my heart melt
cause i knew i loved you more than life itself
then to my knees, and i begged the Allah please
let me be a good mummy, all she needs
love, knowledge, discipline too
i pledge my life to you...

LOVE,